And why is that a good thing?
Well for me that means that whatever was bothering me has also gone.. not following.. let me elaborate!
Earlier in the week I posted This… about being in a Funk. How I deal with “funks” or “moods” is to clean… cleaning is mindless work, so while your hands are busy you can let your mind work through the crap that is bothering you..
Hold on!! I’m not a medical person, so please don’t take my word for it, I am just sharing with you what helps me!
I am a typical Type 2/ Libra we don’t share well unless we want to.. so I am by now, pretty good at hiding how I feel most of the times.. there are times when the family will know “somethings not right” I do one of a number of things.. I hibernate (currently I have not been out of the house except on the weekends for 2 solid weeks.. some days I don’t even get as far as the letter box!) I cry (sometimes they just escape!) or I clean! now I don’t mean clean as in wash the dishes I mean clean as in rip everything out and scrub and polish and discard and repack.. kinda like the Pantry episode from here, except that wasn’t a “cleaning” of my choice.. but it helped to serve a purpose.
When the children were little and I started “Cleaning” they would all look at each other and ask.. “What did YOU do?” they’d all shake their heads and then turn to the Bloke and ask “Who pissed Mum off this time?” I can’t yell and scream or swear when I am mad, it just isn’t in my nature, well, except for this “incident” but I truly believe that was shock speaking!! So if I can’t yell, or scream or swear how else is a girl supposed to get the “Crap” out that threatens to overwhelm us? I clean!
It started Saturday night for me..I wanted so bad to sit and howl and yet I knew that if I did that The Bloke would want to know why and I can hardly decipher the “Why” myself so I picked up the sugar soap and a bucket of hot water and a sponge and started washing the hall way walls.. of course you know once you’ve started you can’t just stop in one spot you need to do the doors and frames and whatever else is “in the line of fire” which included in my case the Children’s bathroom, where I got down on hands and knees and scrubbed the toilet floor and thoroughly scrubbed the toilet which I kind of think is unfair I NEVER use that bathroom ever! So while I am scrubbing and tears are leaking and I am fuming, I am working through it.. next in line was the laundry! by then all that crying or maybe the sugar soap fumes… yeah let’s say it was the fumes.. had worn me out I slept well that night.
Sunday we had football… so in the afternoon I found something else to clean, because the “Funk” wasn’t over or even anywhere near being over… so I put some stuff away in my room and made a mental list of “Stuff” to do to keep busy!
Monday- I swept and washed all the floors it was a “baby free” day,and I spent the afternoon doing Art, another “get lost in the moment and don’t think about whats bothering you” kind of chore, but it’s a fun chore!
Tuesday- I got all the laundry caught up and scrubbed the back deck and did my Ensuite, more fumes, more tears and more silently wailing “this is NOT fair”
Wednesday– the “Pantry Incident” happened and so I de-cluttered and sorted and scrubbed.. one of my Facebook friends said “you missed a spot” in the pantry, it was in fact a screw head, I scrubbed so hard I went through the laminate.. Shhhh don’t tell my bloke!!! I covered it up with shelf liner he won’t notice! But then as I cleaned the pantry I started noticing other stuff to clean so I made this list!’
To do list for the rest of the week.
So then it’s Thursday I had Squishy so I knew I’d be pushing it to get this done and in fact I didn’t get it done.. I got the cupboard fronts done, and I had a special helper…
Until he decided to eat the sponge
So I had to let him go… and eventually I too gave up. When Brett picked up Squish about 12.30 pm I had the Choice…
Work through the list or have a nap or do some art… guess what “ART” won!!
So that in itself tells me that the “funk” is slowly disappearing..
These are two of the Art Journal pages I got done yesterday, there is also a third apparently I didn’t take a photo of it..
Prompt # 6 was “Patterned Paper and Markers” I used an old book page! and Prompt #7 was “Brushes” so I went out of my comfort zone and did a still life, using my Caran D’Arch water-soluble crayons! For me there’s something about drawing that clears my head.. I’m so busy concentrating on “this line goes up to here and then joins that line but on a weird angle, and then there’s this bit that kinda goes nowhere” my mind is so busy I haven’t got time to worry about whatever made me in a “funk” funny how I only just realized that, I NEED to draw more!! Prompt #8 was “numbers” no photo of that it was pretty boring.
So that brings us to today, and I must confess before I went to sleep last night I prayed my hardest that God would give me a rest from this “funk” help me work it out and get past it because my back is KILLING me from all this cleaning and my hands have split from the hot water and sugar soap, I’m so not good with rubber gloves! This morning I woke up with the worst headache, which means it’s going to be a “doing nothing kinda day“
Oh and on the Subject of cleaning.. I did the Fridge on Friday (Last week) there was a horrible smell I took everything out cleaned all the fridge and put it back together only to discover three-week old rock melon makes a VERY awful smell… Do NOT try this at home.. trust me please!
Trouble with this spotless fridge is every time I open it to get something my heart skips a beat like “Oh My Gosh, we have no food we’ll starve” it’s so not true and I’m not even sure where that thought comes from, the freezer is full of goodness!
We are such a wasteful family. We buy stuff and then it goes out of date and we throw it away, or in the case of the three-week old rock melon we leave it.. yuck! I think I am going to start practicing being a “Minimalist“
in this case “Less is more” except my friends when it comes to “Art Supplies” because there is no such thing as TOO MUCH in art supplies!!
And if someone dares to suggest such a thing.. walk away because you don’t need that negativity in your life!
Speaking of which… my art journal is calling me, I am NOT doing one extra ounce of cleaning today and I DARE anyone in my house to call me out on it!!
“My Get up and Go got up and left” …*sigh* it feels so good to be back to me!