I can’t sleep…

Its too dark to read my book, but its too light to go back to sleep, so I decided to check my emails and online things. Google plus come up with a blog post by Rachel Riddler, she has a new bible study happening, its for the whole month and she posts weekly. She linked to this article…  In Gods image. But in particular was this by Naomi…

The reason why it got my attention was a few simple lines…

We – both women and men – were created in the image of God. This phrase is so
important, that it’s repeated: in his own image, in the image of God.

This has had such an impact on me this week. Personally, I have a very loud mental voice telling me that my tummy is too big, that I need to lose a stone, that my hair is a mess… I spend far too much time listening to that voice, and not to the truth of this verse: my body is made in the image of God.

As God created our bodies (in His image), he knows our bodies. He knows the complexities of hormones, of gynaecology, of ‘women’s health.’ He knows that we listen to that nagging voice. He knows how we talk to ourselves about our bodies. Let’s not forget that those bodies are made in His image. We have a responsibility and a privilege to care for our bodies. We definitely shouldn’t be shaming ourselves over them.

And this got my attention why? well, I’ve just spent another almost full week, being sick, and I spent that week wallowing in self pity. Come Thursday night I was almost begging my Husband to take me to hospital, all of my home self help remedies had failed me, I had a raging temperature, I was basically “Over it!” So my husband came home from work, he calmed me, he brought me drinks, panadol, wet face cloths, he made me Vegemite sandwiches, he babied me until the Panadol kicked in, despite me telling him for the umpteenth time “If I was a horse you’d shoot me and put me out of this misery” so selfish I am! And I know I am NOT the only woman who does hear that niggling little voice of self doubt, mine is loud and clear and sounds just like the women who birthed me.

October 11th I turn 50! I have been excited for 50 ever since I turned 21, that seemed to be my milestone, Up until August I was excited, then I got that really bad Flu, its been going around our whole state, people are dying! And in August I had maybe 6 days where I felt “normal” so I was hoping September was going to be better, it is after all Spring! But nope! Then I got this tummy bug thing! In August when I got the flu bug, I started to hear doubts sneak in. “is this a preview of what 50 looks like? Me being fat and un well and horrible?” Suddenly I started to feel. “old” and previously thats never how I felt about 50!

Then the dizzy spells started and so I decided to go to the Dr and I spoke to her and poured out my hopes and my woes and said “I want to start my 50’s off in my best health, what can I do?” I picked the right woman for the job and she started doing all those “Womens tests” you girls know what Im talking about the ones we keep putting off, the Pap Smears and Breast exams and mole checks etc, I had been putting mine off since 2011! She even did my height and weight and then my BMI to which she said “You could stand to loose a few kilos” Oh I knew that! I didnt want to hear that! But then she added “I can help you with that too!” And so I left that day with an order for a whole range of blood testing she wants done and a much better attitude.

so reading this line…
As God created our bodies (in His image), he knows our bodies. He knows the complexities of hormones, of gynaecology, of ‘women’s health.’ He knows that we listen to that nagging voice. He knows how we talk to ourselves about our bodies. Let’s not forget that those bodies are made in His image. We have a responsibility and a privilege to care for our bodies. We definitely shouldn’t be shaming ourselves over them.

It reminded me I dont talk to myself nicely, I wouldnt talk to anyone else the way I do to myself. And I do have a responsibility to look after this body that God has provided me with. A morning prayer and a blog post! Go and read Rachel’s post its really good.


This week in Cro… hold on!

There Will be a “This week in Crochet land” later in the week for last week. I am terribly behind. 

I am really REALLY sick! It came on so suddenly within hours l went from happily dancing around the house singing as l cleaned the house.  I spent three hours doing some “extra” bible study yep! I am “that” student that goes back and does stuff not required because l don’t want to miss anything. I suggested to my Study teacher Bianca, a few weeks ago that my work was so impressive l might need a gold star. She said she didn’t have any so she drew me a star! So l went and brought her some gold stars for next time l give her work for corrections. 

So Wednesday afternoon it all started sliding down hill, starting with a weird rattling in my chest and a tickle in my throat. By 5:00pm l was feverish and coughing. I think l was delirious asking my husband to ring Bianca and cancel our combined study and lunch date for the next day. He told me, after l woke him up at 12:45am asking him “Did you call Bianca?” 

“For the 5th time Yes! I called Bianca!”

It’s important not to let Bianca down because she’s taken me under her wing and added me to her “Sisterhood” and that sense of belonging is so precious!

Thursday- ALL day was a repeat of Wednesday afternoon now add being sore from coughing and being dizzy, no appetite my throats was so sore felt like l swallowed razor blades. I did a gentle house clean and because it was super windy l changed all the bedding and put that out on the line but even that simple task sent me to bed for three hours. More fevers and raspy voice. 

Friday although it looked lovely out the bedroom window and the temperature tells me its spring like weather l was shivering tucked up in bed, not even attempting to clean the house. The headache was the worst, painkillers were not touching it. So that night after only sleeping three very broken hours on Thursday l took a stronger pain killer Friday night and slept!

Saturday morning l open my eyes wearily. So far so good, no headache, no cough if l don’t breathe too deeply, but what’s this?! 😮 a massive cold sore on my lip! The third one l’ve ever had! An ulcer on my tongue 👅 and what’s wrong with my hands?! 

Every finger swollen and blistered! Awesome my Ross River Virsus has now joined the party! Cold water hurt my hands, hot water hurt more, l could barely close my hands to hold a glass. But the house was almost empty of food so we had to do shopping. 

I felt like a zombie, l don’t recall any of it except leaving my husband in a store and rushing outside for air l thought l was going to faint. I sat slumped like a homeless person until my husband came to collect me. Back home to bed! My eldest daughter was hosting a birthday party for our youngest Grand daughter “Faerygirl” and had warned us “Stay away!” I’m so glad we did.

Sunday l had a preplanned trip organised with my cousin to an American expo to do research for our 2018 trip but l honestly don’t know how l got through it. This morning l woke up half deaf!! But we did it and got lots of tour info to use. But back home again it was straight back to bed. 

So now it’s today, Monday and while l am still coughing up a lung, have very little voice, no taste sensation at all, l am forcing myself to eat to get better. I’ve had no pain relief since Sunday and lm up and dressed. Only because l had an appointment with the foot Dr about my “Acheillies tendinitis” I explained my foot is the least of my current woes until he pressed exactly on the right place and made me squeal. Ok so my foot is back in sticking plaster for another week but he says he approves of my spending so much down time laying around the house it’s helping my foot! Back to him in two weeks!

So while lm on a good run l began crocheting some of the 7 squares l missed out on. I’ll come back later with pics of those. 

I really cannot believe how severely this “bug” has hit me, l do not recall ever feeling this sick and l wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy!!

Sometimes you just need a little reminder…

So this Saturday morning is different from usual as the Bloke had to go into work, a rare occasion on a Saturday. After cleaning the house Miss Three aka Sweetpea was restless and her Mum was growling at her, so Grandma to the rescue “Lets go to the park!” Says l, immediately regretting my hasty words. Its winter- although the sun is shining the wind is cold. 

So off we set Sweetpea and l. There is a little park at the end of our court, there are a few swings and some rocking rides on giant springs. We talked about springs and how you might spell it, a huge plane flew over so we talked about planes and where we would go on that big plane. 

We walked up the hill towards the bigger park as we walked we counted our stomping feet, we talked about shapes we could see when she spotted a triangle cut into a gate. We talked about the little Willy wagtail bird as he hopped along the ground in front of us, l told her about his beautiful song and she told me “Oh Grandma he’s so so SO cute and little!” 

At the next park, there were bigger obstacles to tackle, a slide, climbing frame and seesaws. Some she tackled bravely others she called “Grandma l need help!” 

As l sat there in the sunshine and watched the puffy white clouds skipping across the sky l thought about Jehovah and how he built the world in just 7 days, and how that silly rhyme goes about “Blue and green should never be seen unless a colour in between” which made me smile because God created Blue skies and Green trees which are usually seen together so how does that rhyme even make sense?! Is someone suggesting “HE” Got it wrong!?!

Just swinging with my girl!

She could be any little girl but she’s MINE!

“I’m driving a bus Grandma!”

Sometimes it’s the little things in your day that remind you about love, life and “just being”

I’ve had a horrible week! It started off well I spent Monday with my cousin who is on holidays and then Tuesday I attended my first night time bible study which was amazing, l also started a 21 day detox but come Wednesday I was so sick! My first thought was “Satan really got nervous that I attended bible study last night!” So l prayed harder! I spent all Day Wednesday vomiting and sleeping. Needless to say l gave up detox quick smart! Thursday l spent the day in bed sore- l felt like l had a metal belt wrapped around my mid section squeezing me tighter and tighter, Friday l felt a little better but still sore. 

So today’s trip to the park has been the highlight of the week! 

Oops! I did it again!

I forgot to stop by and write and now it’s been five months since my last confession, errrr, I mean last posting.

So I won’t bore you all with the back story, lets just move on from here and start with HAPPY NEW YEAR! 

I hope that 2017 is turning out nicely for you. Me Im having some ups and downs. We’ve done loads of camping, which lead to being bitten by mozzies (AKA mosquitoes) typical camping hazard except mine also led to Ross River Virus so that hasn’t been pleasant, some days are worse than others. At least currently I can walk again without too much pain!


opps, its now July, almost August, I am such a bad blog Mother!

So the Ross River Virus has been in and off, my my foot never seemed to heal so last month I went back to the Dr because I noticed a lump on the back of my heel, he sent me to a “Foot Dr” it seems that I have had and am being treated for a case of acute tendonitis.  Great huh? So Ive been having my foot wrapped and then un wrapped and re wrapped, currently I am on the unwrap and I have to walk around two weeks then go back for the next discussion about what to do with my ankle.

In the meantime, I have quit all social media, and I am soending time with my crochet and bible studies, Monday will be three weeks since I quit social media and TV as well. I am finally getting some reading done and several hours per week specifically on bible studies, and I recently started to attend church service each week, first time in my life and I am loving it.

I have no idea why this post didn’t get posted when I wrote the first part of it, but oh well, here I am better late than not at all.

Happy 2017!

So its Feb 24th 2017

I’ve been missing in action, Im not going to replay everything that happened but lets just start from  here. This year has been busy already and its been a mixed bag, good and bad.

I am doing a crochet challenge, so each day I crochet one granny square… doing that with Nadia from YARNutopia.

I am also doing a temperature blanket, where we crochet one row a day with a colour that represents the days highest temperature. I am using this time to learn new stitches and techniques.

Plus 43 things is back! Oh how I have missed that site, its run by different people but similar to the old set up, so Ive been able to rcreate some of my old goals! One of the goals is about asking questions to see who will play along and answer them, so in response to today question was to share our blog.. I just realised how neglected mine has become.

I will endevour to keep up to date with my blog this year! I promise!!


Well starting in two weeks because next week I am away camping in South Australia.


Make over time…

And once again, I haven’t been here recently.. I am sorry I promised to be better.. but then I decided to work on me.

If you’ve followed me for a while you may have read my “50 before 50” goal if not here it is…

Well guess what? that 50 is racing upon us and I hate to be surprised about some things so I’m planning.. OK, so I have 11 months, but it’s good to be prepared, I want to cross some things off that list and also the most important one is “to throw myself an amazing 50th birthday party” So the planning has begun, the theme is set and I am working on collecting the bits n piece to decorate. I could have it at a “place” and let someone else do the work, but then I wouldn’t enjoy it as much. Maybe it’s from all the years of planning parties for the numerous children and friends and family, I LIKE the responsibility of making it come to live and I don’t even mind the clean up, the bigger the mess the more fun that was had.

Anyways… side track, one of my goals was to loose weight and get to my goal weight (I did that but I did not maintain it! ) and keep it off till my party! this would mean that I can wear a fabulous costume.. yes most of my parties involve some kind of theme involving some kind of fancy dressing.

So I have embarked on “transformation” I have 11 months now to get where I want to be and to stay there. August 22nd I weighed in and did the measurements. I am doing Body Trim again, because I KNOW it works and I KNOW that I can maintain it I just have to be strong for and with myself.

Well now it is week four..I have lost three kilograms and yes that’s a small amount, but since I only had about 10 kilos to loose it means that it will be slower.. but that’s ok, I understand it’s part of the program and so usually when you don’t loose on the scales you loose on the tape measure and this too has been happening.

So part of the first four weeks on Body Trim is learning to “re program your body and eating the correct way” we have to learn to eat three main meals and three snacks, all Protein. The first three days are a detox phase where you eat only protein and drink lots of water (for me that’s been an effort) and get used to making 10,000 at least steps a day. I don’t know about yáll but 10,000 steps takes a lot of effort. So that meant, little apart from house work got done. House work is actually a good way to get 10,000 steps but then I had friends on “Fit Bit” and so we started challenging each other and that can be addictive!

Anyways that explains my absence, so now I am back and I am going to share the journey with you and share the recipes that I make and I just found this really cool exercise to get rid of my double chins! SO I thought I’d start by sharing that!

I also forgot to mention, that since I was doing so well on Body trim, I have a better attitude about loosing weight and so I am doing (to further push myself) “SugarfreeSeptember” each day we take a photo of the thing on this list!


Why don’t you join us? go to for more info! you can start where you are!






Early morning blog post… Using our words wisely..

Good Morning everyone (spoken in my best teachers voice) its 7:37am Friday the 5th of August, its my Brother Bill’s birthday, I hope the card I sent him will makes it in time. Its also the day Marilyn Monroe died all those years ago, no Bill I wont reveal your age, but as he came into the world, she went out of it.

 I have just completed my bible study for the day, this bible study in on the Book of James with Courtney over at Good Morning Girls today we were instructed to read James 3:1-12. Then we choose a portion of the scripture that most appeals and we do the S.O.A.K method and colour code it. This morning I chose verses 3-6 and I’ll share it with you below so you know what I am waffling on about..

James 3:3-6New International Version (NIV)

3 When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal. 4 Or take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go. 5 Likewise, the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. 6 The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole body, sets the whole course of one’s life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

So these verses tell us about how “things” including our tongues can be controlled. I am particularly drawn to the lines 

6 The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole body, sets the whole course of one’s life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

Lets read it again… The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body.

I am sure that whoever you are,  reading this blog post, (and whoever you are THANK YOU for taking time in your busy life to spend some time in my words.) that at some stage in your life or maybe even repeatedly you have been touched by words that have come from an evil tongue, and maybe even been the cause of the evil tongue lashing, I know I have been on both sides. We are born of men, we are all sinners, as long as we learn from the experience and ask for forgiveness its not a wasted experience.  But then you too, like me, know the power of those words and how much they sting and how once spoken they cant be retracted. It doesnt matter how many times someone says “Sorry” to you, or tries to tell you that they spoke in anger and “didn’t mean what they said” its STILL, sometimes years afterwards, those stinging words that come back and the pain is as fresh as if it happened only yesterday. I wish we knew the effect those stinging words would have on the person we said them to BEFORE we said them, before it was too late to take them back. 

Yes, I have been on the end of stinging words, from people closest, whom you thought were your family. And as much as I pray for their forgiveness, I struggle to be able to mute those words. I had a discussion with my sister-in-law a few nights ago, and she wisely told me that I have to let it go because its robbing me of being truly happy and being the best me I can be. Thats very true it is robbing me of that. And everytime I think I am past it, something happens to remind me and the words are back in my head and I’m right back there again. I, on the other hand, well I am mousey, I never have the bravery to stand up and say what I think, I never have. Prehaps that is a saving Grace, maybe that is God’s plan, he puts his hand over my mouth, so I wont say the things my mind thinks! I go one of two ways, I either bite my tongue and let it go, (as a wise man once told me “Pick your fights“) I am SUPER good at that, its a wonder I still have a tongue after all these years.  Or I sit down and think it all out and then I write my scathing replies usually in a flood of tears and a world of pain. I am REALLY good at that option. But l also found out from one of those recipents that after all these years its been 16 years since I wrote that letter, it haunts her like her words keep haunting me, she kept the letter and re-reads it, so she keeps herself in that pain,  really I am NO better than she was, I just thought I was. I wonder if while she was using her tongue to SAY all those things she got as much relief as I got WRITING all those words, setting the truth free?! I wonder if she at the time, walked away feeling better that she had cleared the air and voiced her opinion. I know writing the words and mailing the letter was healing for me, I quickly forgot all about the letter until I was reminded of it a few years ago. 

Today as I was working on my bible study the morning radio was on in the back ground and a caller phoned in to request a song it was a little after 7:00am and she was returning home from the gym, she said she had crossed paths with a fellow gym member who complimented her on how great she looked that day. A simple compliment made the whole difference to the caller of the radio show, she explained that in Feb. she had had surgery for a weight loss procedure and was new to the gym, but was trying really hard to loose weight and get fit, she told of the struggle to get out of bed this morning it was only 3C and its icy out there, but she forced herself to her work out, and then she receieved that compliment and it made the world of difference to her that someone was noticing. She also mentioned that since Feb. she had shed an amazing 36 kilograms of un wanted weight. Probably the Lady who made the compliment wouldnt have known any of that. It made me think about the lady who had used her words wisely and complimented the caller.. Did she feel good muttering those words as she passed by? Did she wake up this morning and decide that she would use her words wisely and start off complimenting someone at the gym? Even knowing the lady who used her wise words was running late, she took that time to make someone elses day seem brighter. I really wonder if the the Lady who made the compliment realised what a Huge difference she made to the caller? I REALLY hope the lady who made the compliment, has a super day today! i hope someone pays her a compliment so she will feel a little of what the caller felt. So the caller requested the song from Bob Marley “One love” and I stopped my bible study to really listen to the words of the song and it made me more conscious of using my words for good today. 

Friday will be “Use your words Wisely Day” for those of you who are not yet in Friday won’t you join me? I am going to try and only use Good words today, wish me luck! 

Thank you for stopping by to read my blog!